Be anxious for nothing….
But I seem to be anxious about EVERYTHING. Anxious about the future, about money, about my job, about my health, about being in an airplane, about being in this massive city, about friendships, about being so far from my family, about making bad choices, about the ferry to Manly sinking while Im on it, about Australia being on high terror alert, about disappointing God because I haven’t spent time with him and when I do its only to ask for something, about not being married yet or even remotely close to it, about being too far away from a toilet if I feel sick, about the busses brakes not working while going down a hill and plummeting into the ocean, about what people are saying about me…..ridiculous or legit reasons…anxiety has robbed a lot of my year.
Distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune.
A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.
A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.
Don’t get me wrong, my year has definitely had a lot of great things happen. As you can read in previous posts God has been doing a great work in me. And he continues to do so. My life isn’t horrible. But anxiety has been a massive part of this year. I have been physically sick a lot of this year which I have been trying to deal with medically but I know that it is worsened by anxiety. Worry. Fear.
‘An anxious heart weighs a man down…‘ (Proverbs 12:25)
Some people say to me – just stop worrying about things. That, my friends, is a very true but rather unhelpful comment. Of course I should stop worrying! Oh how I wish I lived a worry free life. Why is it that my brain just cannot calm itself down and chill out….instead it goes a million miles an hour coming up with many different disastrous outcomes of any situation.
Be anxious for nothing…
I hope you all know that this blog is not about me teaching you anything or preaching my sermon…its simply me sharing part of my journey with you … most of which is God reminding me of His goodness and me in the end going ‘DUUUUH, why didn’t I look to you in the first place.’
As you read up the top…some of my anxieties are somewhat ridiculous and irrational…some are reasonably legit although out of my control and some are things that I could change or control but haven’t and have just let them sit there and simmer. But whatever the case…I have been filled with anxiety.
I got to a point where I woke up one morning having an anxiety attack. I could hardly breathe, I felt like passing out, I felt sick, I was sweating, I was crying and I had absolutely no idea why this was happening or what was going on. I knew that I had to pull myself together because I had two kids to look after that morning and their parents had already gone to work…but that made me panic even more. I called up my dad (praise the Lord for awesome dads), and he prayed for me and then reminded me of the promises of God and gave me this scripture to read and told me that whenever I came to a promise of God that I was to read it aloud and declare it.
At first I just started reading it out as fast as I could because I was still panicking, but soon I started to calm down and as I read the scripture I started declaring it. Anxiety started to fade and a boldness started to appear. I had to fix my eyes on Jesus a remember once again that He was in control and loved me and He chose me and has not forgotten me…
‘Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes. Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?.’ (Matthew 6:25-27)
Now I am pretty passionate about speaking words of life (right anyone who heard me preach while I was youth pastoring??)…and yet I am the WORST at practicing what I preach when it comes to speaking over myself. I could easily pray for peace or freedom from anxiety over others but didn’t really think I could get it for myself.
Like Pastor Steven Furtick said in a great message of his ‘You will never have peace until you learn how to speak peace to the waves within. Learn how to calm the waves within and you can ride the waves without.’
Most of the time the issue is not in the actual physical situation going on at all, its all about whats going on inside, how many conclusions you have jumped to, how far you have let your mind wander.
Joyce Meyer says, ‘Worry is down payment on a problem you may never have.’
I am learning how to speak the promises of God over my life and within those promises are all the answers to my worries and concerns.
I am a work in progress, but as I have been speaking out the promises of God I have found myself a lot less anxious and worried and my health has improved quite a lot.
‘If God is FOR us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things.’ (Romans 8:31-32)
‘Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast ALL your ANXIETY on Him because he cares for you.’ (1 Peter 5:6-7)
‘And my God will meet ALL your needs according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus.‘ (Philippians 4:19)
‘So we can say with CONFIDENCE, “The Lord is my helper; I will NOT be afraid.”‘ (Hebrews 13:6)
How God must look at me and laugh…’Oh Charissa….take a chill pill and focus on me.’
‘Be anxious for NOTHING, but in EVERYTHING by prayer and petition, with THANKSGIVING, present your requests to God. And the PEACE of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your MINDs in Christ Jesus.’ (Philippians 4:6-7)